A formula that works

I guess that's all we need.
Though I am aware that days like these are often just a cycle but I can't help to be sick of what's going on.
On and off, on and off. I wish I grab a better grip of life than being like this always.
And I dont think it's age issue. Merely a lifestyle. I dont believe any SUCCESSful Singaporean out there would feel like king/queen 365!

So what we are done with our rants? It is not necessary motivation/encouragements that work for me always.
I can figure my way out and drive my own path but I realised I need something else.
I need a way out. A different path that brings a different life perhaps. That I could concentrate on making a life closer to my desired.

I was perhaps wrong to put that wish on Jason who really cant do a thing about it now.
I wish badly for someone to bring me out.
A spontaneous act & a warm gentle voice telling me,"Hey,I'll bring you out!" and makes me happy. A hand that would leads me and tugs me to somewhere safe.
I realised I have always been wishing for someone like this. Someone who can protect me and yet let me shine. Someone who can let me be alone and yet never be any further from my heart.

I know Jason is trying to be as close as to that someone I desired for.
I know it is not fair for time for him is not ripe yet.

That's why my frustrations build up when my insecurity attacks.
I dont wanna let Jason feel pressurized and bad because he can't do things help me 'escape' from this place I dislike...yet.
But I dunno what to do and who to count on.

Is that the formula that will makes wonder for me?
A Prince of July?(Heck that if you dont understand. I dunno how I make up that either.)


If days like these are just a cycle and probably you are gonna hitch the upride soon..but it is just frustrating,especially if you are counting on yourself to tide the dark days.
I know we just wish for someone else to take us fly..another way.